“I am you, I am me, I am everything”...these words spring from nowhere to haunt my thoughts for the moment and as they do so I ponder and reflect on what they mean. They are the perfect statement of factual truth that omits only one fact, that we are love and therefore I am love too.
So, if I am love, then anything less than who I am is not true. Why do I allow thoughts that are less than me, less than who I am? If they are true, these statements, let me be who I am, profoundly and without question. No longer able to deny the truth, I am then catapulted forward to being something altogether more powerful and forgiving, loving and whole.
What would I do tomorrow that is otherwise denied me if I own who I truly am? How different would my day be and the thoughts I process as a result of the realisation and actualisation of the truth within me?
I don’t know...so I will try it and see!
Monday, 7 February 2011
Saturday, 8 January 2011
My Teacher, the Snake
Over two years in Thailand and until just now I have never seen a live snake except in a zoo. My ever growing love of nature in all forms means that I watched in horror as a well-meaning neighbour came to help and bashed it to death. I am wanting to cry even as I type these words. I doubt it was even poisonous. It was horrible.
On later reflection, the lesson for me from this comes in the form of not standing by and watching a death, thinking you can be free of responsibility while someone else does the bludgeoning in your name. Furthermore, it lies in the awareness that in the absence of a clear and direct life-threatening attack, we all have a right to live and to be respected, both me and the snake. I may be a little scared of snakes but I am pretty sure that this one was not poisonous and, even if it was, it could have been removed calmly and without loss of life. Should I kill all the animals in the jungle where I will soon live, lest they harm me? What kind of jungle, what kind of natural haven, would that then be? A very sterile one, one diametrically opposed to the one I seek.
I feel the snake gave me its life to teach me this important lesson and I apologise to it and offer it my gratitude. If I am to teach a deeper and more fulfilling connection with oneself through a profound connection with nature, such lessons are vital. Through this understanding I may now enjoy a deeper connection with my true self as well.
On later reflection, the lesson for me from this comes in the form of not standing by and watching a death, thinking you can be free of responsibility while someone else does the bludgeoning in your name. Furthermore, it lies in the awareness that in the absence of a clear and direct life-threatening attack, we all have a right to live and to be respected, both me and the snake. I may be a little scared of snakes but I am pretty sure that this one was not poisonous and, even if it was, it could have been removed calmly and without loss of life. Should I kill all the animals in the jungle where I will soon live, lest they harm me? What kind of jungle, what kind of natural haven, would that then be? A very sterile one, one diametrically opposed to the one I seek.
I feel the snake gave me its life to teach me this important lesson and I apologise to it and offer it my gratitude. If I am to teach a deeper and more fulfilling connection with oneself through a profound connection with nature, such lessons are vital. Through this understanding I may now enjoy a deeper connection with my true self as well.
Thursday, 6 January 2011
An Ever-Expanding Awareness
The universe consists of an endless stream of consciousness that stems from the core of everything and this consciousness exists to experiment with itself, to test what it may do and experience as a result and to let advanced awareness within its constituent parts flow through everything, reaching even its outermost corners as it is happening. There is an illusion of time and distance but in reality it is all one place and time. An elaborate mirage set up to expand its self awareness fades as we wake up and see it for what it all is: a game, a challenge, a show.
Viewed this way, we can see new truth, reality beyond the illusion, and it is this veil that is now lifting on humanity for the first time in a very long time. I have experienced growth in awareness at this time and through it I am free of much of the burden of the illusion, the seemingly eternal suffering of human existence. Once you can see it for what it is, there is no reason for anything other than playing the game as it is meant to be played, freely, with an intent to win through and emerge victorious, awakened to a new level of awareness and experience.
There is not much more I can say: simply do what comes to mind and feels right in the moment, as this is the prompt of life, the eternal force of the universe seeking ever greater fulfilment for itself, expansion by another name.
Viewed this way, we can see new truth, reality beyond the illusion, and it is this veil that is now lifting on humanity for the first time in a very long time. I have experienced growth in awareness at this time and through it I am free of much of the burden of the illusion, the seemingly eternal suffering of human existence. Once you can see it for what it is, there is no reason for anything other than playing the game as it is meant to be played, freely, with an intent to win through and emerge victorious, awakened to a new level of awareness and experience.
There is not much more I can say: simply do what comes to mind and feels right in the moment, as this is the prompt of life, the eternal force of the universe seeking ever greater fulfilment for itself, expansion by another name.
Wednesday, 5 January 2011
Endless Awakening
Tonight I have woken up, woken up to a still deeper level of understanding about myself and the poor decisions I made based on a hurt little boy whose sister didn’t love him. I have started to realise how my desperation for love and approval by her has had such a deep and negative impact in my life, an impact that was greater than I ever suspected when I first woke up to this reality 10 days ago.
First came the pain, the anger and the hurt that I could have been so foolish, so blind. Then came the realisation that nothing I could do would change it and I was numb for a while. But after that came the awareness that I wanted more; I wanted me, me free of the burdens of this decision that I was somehow to blame for my rejection by her. And as it came slowly and I released the anger and pain and the body slowly healed itself, then came a new level of consciousness, a new level of self awareness and love.
Now that is where I am, as I slowly see the many ways it has impacted me, the acceptances of abuse by others, the tolerance of hatred or disrespect or even jealousy in the desperate hope I would be forgiven for whatever it was I must have done wrong in the first place that was deserving of my punishment.
And from this place of freedom, of self awareness, comes unconditional love in the form of an angel that I drew to help me at this difficult time, my dog, Lucky, that ultimate animal of selfless, unconditional love, bounding down the stairs as I shed my tears, to offer me love, comfort and loyalty in the space left by the void of questioned love.
How can I deny there is a god, a consciousness that pervades everything in the face of this? I cannot and in the wake of this, my stand for myself and the new real me, comes a new awareness in the man I love, an awareness that I will no longer tolerate things that stem from an old me, an old paradigm to which I am no longer betrothed. The love that flows in its wake it real, unconditional and without parallel in my life. The universe has indeed heard my pleas, my cries for help, my promise to be true to it always and replied to me loudly and repeatedly, even when I would not listen and not appreciate its voice it shouted loud and clear. And its voice heard at a whole new level by us both allows a new beginning, a new promise for the future, a future not possible until now.
First came the pain, the anger and the hurt that I could have been so foolish, so blind. Then came the realisation that nothing I could do would change it and I was numb for a while. But after that came the awareness that I wanted more; I wanted me, me free of the burdens of this decision that I was somehow to blame for my rejection by her. And as it came slowly and I released the anger and pain and the body slowly healed itself, then came a new level of consciousness, a new level of self awareness and love.
Now that is where I am, as I slowly see the many ways it has impacted me, the acceptances of abuse by others, the tolerance of hatred or disrespect or even jealousy in the desperate hope I would be forgiven for whatever it was I must have done wrong in the first place that was deserving of my punishment.
And from this place of freedom, of self awareness, comes unconditional love in the form of an angel that I drew to help me at this difficult time, my dog, Lucky, that ultimate animal of selfless, unconditional love, bounding down the stairs as I shed my tears, to offer me love, comfort and loyalty in the space left by the void of questioned love.
How can I deny there is a god, a consciousness that pervades everything in the face of this? I cannot and in the wake of this, my stand for myself and the new real me, comes a new awareness in the man I love, an awareness that I will no longer tolerate things that stem from an old me, an old paradigm to which I am no longer betrothed. The love that flows in its wake it real, unconditional and without parallel in my life. The universe has indeed heard my pleas, my cries for help, my promise to be true to it always and replied to me loudly and repeatedly, even when I would not listen and not appreciate its voice it shouted loud and clear. And its voice heard at a whole new level by us both allows a new beginning, a new promise for the future, a future not possible until now.
Sunday, 2 January 2011
Embrace or Run Away? The choice is yours!
There is an endless supply of opportunities in life for self improvement: every loss, every challenge, every accident and even every death, presents us with opportunities for growth and advancement. We can embrace life in this positive way or we can run away. The choice is ours.
If we run away, we face life’s challenges as a victim, someone injured by our falls in ways that we will likely never recover from and we lose out hugely as a result as life becomes a struggle to survive.
If we embrace each opportunity, the golden nugget it becomes then fully rewards our courage and fortitude as it brings a learning to strengthen and guide us, whilst incidentally also giving us the benefit of a more positive outlook, with all the joy that it then brings.
My choice was made long ago and I am happier than I ever thought possible. So what will your choice be?
If we run away, we face life’s challenges as a victim, someone injured by our falls in ways that we will likely never recover from and we lose out hugely as a result as life becomes a struggle to survive.
If we embrace each opportunity, the golden nugget it becomes then fully rewards our courage and fortitude as it brings a learning to strengthen and guide us, whilst incidentally also giving us the benefit of a more positive outlook, with all the joy that it then brings.
My choice was made long ago and I am happier than I ever thought possible. So what will your choice be?
Saturday, 1 January 2011
Reach into your Heart
Reach beyond the stars of your imagination and touch your soul, for in it lies the answer to everything, to all the questions we have asked for aeons, all the untold miseries and how to end them. It is now that all will flow, to allow us to reach the heavens of the mind. There is no obstacle left; you are free once more to soar above your thoughts and limitations, to fly beyond your doubts and leave them all behind, but a distant memory of a painful past.
Gorge yourself on a feast of celestial pleasures that nurture your spirit. Soak up the delights of a life fulfilled by endeavours of the heart. There is no thought too bold, too grand; you may have it all and more now that you know who you are.
Come let me show you all this and more and forever in my heart will I be in bliss as I watch unfold the many consequences of my actions that will ignite a fire of freedom amongst mankind. With it will come a new age of awareness and opportunity, new faith in humanity and our ability to be whatever we desire in our hearts with passion. Bring it on!
Gorge yourself on a feast of celestial pleasures that nurture your spirit. Soak up the delights of a life fulfilled by endeavours of the heart. There is no thought too bold, too grand; you may have it all and more now that you know who you are.
Come let me show you all this and more and forever in my heart will I be in bliss as I watch unfold the many consequences of my actions that will ignite a fire of freedom amongst mankind. With it will come a new age of awareness and opportunity, new faith in humanity and our ability to be whatever we desire in our hearts with passion. Bring it on!
Sunday, 26 December 2010
“You are not welcome here anymore!”
“You are not welcome here anymore!” These words sting as surely as a deadly snake and they keep me in my place for far too long. They show me how gullible I have been and how disconnected from my true self. The pain of realising that I led my life in the belief that I was somehow worse than others because I was not welcome in the life of someone dear to me had caused me to pause and reflect and somehow synthesise all that took place as a result so that I may move forward and be free.
I found the source of much past pain and it was ugly. It shocked me and touched me at the same time. I feel so loathed, so rejected and yet I also see that in time I will be able to manage the pain and move beyond the false decisions I made about myself, about who I am.
Oh, gosh, this was so far removed from anything I expected, from my known world, no wonder the pain lay buried so deep, so decked in the paraphernalia of life so as to ignore the real source of suffering, the indignation caused by the awareness at what took place and what I made it mean.
I am shocked and it will take time to adjust to this alternate reality that nature has laid at my door. With it will come freedom I never though possible, that much I can tell. Now let it rest and settle and see what transpires. Tomorrow is another day and it will bring new hope as the dust settles and the emotions are free once more.
I found the source of much past pain and it was ugly. It shocked me and touched me at the same time. I feel so loathed, so rejected and yet I also see that in time I will be able to manage the pain and move beyond the false decisions I made about myself, about who I am.
Oh, gosh, this was so far removed from anything I expected, from my known world, no wonder the pain lay buried so deep, so decked in the paraphernalia of life so as to ignore the real source of suffering, the indignation caused by the awareness at what took place and what I made it mean.
I am shocked and it will take time to adjust to this alternate reality that nature has laid at my door. With it will come freedom I never though possible, that much I can tell. Now let it rest and settle and see what transpires. Tomorrow is another day and it will bring new hope as the dust settles and the emotions are free once more.
Saturday, 25 December 2010
A Christmas Birthday
It has never been told before, but I have suffered immeasurably over the years due to past decisions about my innate worth and “lovability” and secretly they have gnawed away at me, day in and day out, until one day the pain was too much to bear any longer and and it burst open, a flood of tears and buried pain that spewed forth, wretched in appearance, an ugly truth no longer denied.
It is hard at first to be with the truth yet it also sets me free and opens up fresh opportunity in life. Now as I await further fresh insights and understanding to complete the picture, I am calm, trusting that with it will come inner contentment with who I am and what I have become, pleased beyond words by the enormous changes in me that leave me in love with life and ready to venture forth, unafraid, inspired by the truth and the light and all this it has brought to me and may now bring to others.
God is so kind to me, its gentle, loving and protective arms firmly wrapped around me now, never letting me go, yet I am free and no longer burdened by what I saw of myself as a child, the ego personality, that mirror of other people’s thoughts and opinions rather than my true self. Now I am ‘me’ at last, loving, generous of spirit and committed to our growth into the forthcoming new age of man.
May this Christmas be the birthday of a new spirit within me, a free spirit no longer weighed down by unreal doubts and fear, in love with life itself and the wonders that lie ahead.
It is hard at first to be with the truth yet it also sets me free and opens up fresh opportunity in life. Now as I await further fresh insights and understanding to complete the picture, I am calm, trusting that with it will come inner contentment with who I am and what I have become, pleased beyond words by the enormous changes in me that leave me in love with life and ready to venture forth, unafraid, inspired by the truth and the light and all this it has brought to me and may now bring to others.
God is so kind to me, its gentle, loving and protective arms firmly wrapped around me now, never letting me go, yet I am free and no longer burdened by what I saw of myself as a child, the ego personality, that mirror of other people’s thoughts and opinions rather than my true self. Now I am ‘me’ at last, loving, generous of spirit and committed to our growth into the forthcoming new age of man.
May this Christmas be the birthday of a new spirit within me, a free spirit no longer weighed down by unreal doubts and fear, in love with life itself and the wonders that lie ahead.
Thursday, 23 December 2010
On the Twelfth Day
Eleven days out of twelve shall you suffer your own creation and on the twelfth day there will be a reckoning, a balancing of man with nature. There will be no more harrowing tales of exploitation and rigid thinking; instead, all will be flexible and fluid, a natural ebb and flow like a beautiful dance with nature that lifts you so you can soar to new heights.
Eleven days out of twelve shall you toil and in the end, when it is over, relax and watch unfold a miracle of existence, a Divine show of power and love that thenceforth no man may put asunder, for the wealth of the human spirit will flow with abundance and joy and know no bounds. No more aching hearts adrift in a sea of knowing, only peace and tranquility, the dawn of a new age of man.
Eleven days out of twelve shall you know yourself through your denials and ever-present fears. Then on the twelfth day shall you know your greatness once more and be free to pursue your heart’s contentment. Nothing shall obstruct your quest for truth and fulfilment and instead shall you be at peace in heaven on earth.
Eleven days out of twelve shall you toil and in the end, when it is over, relax and watch unfold a miracle of existence, a Divine show of power and love that thenceforth no man may put asunder, for the wealth of the human spirit will flow with abundance and joy and know no bounds. No more aching hearts adrift in a sea of knowing, only peace and tranquility, the dawn of a new age of man.
Eleven days out of twelve shall you know yourself through your denials and ever-present fears. Then on the twelfth day shall you know your greatness once more and be free to pursue your heart’s contentment. Nothing shall obstruct your quest for truth and fulfilment and instead shall you be at peace in heaven on earth.
Wednesday, 22 December 2010
A Time to Cherish Forever
If ever there was a time that I could cherish forever, it is now. As I grow beyond my troubles and strife to reach new heights of awareness, I learn new things that open my eyes more fully, this time to reveal an ugly reality that leaves me feeling hurt to my core: the awareness that I have given too much and have been exploited as a result hurts me a great deal, yet it empowers me too, as I am responsible for it, driven by a need to prove my worth to everyone.
There is no reason for me to continue with it; I can simply let them go, they who would abuse me and exploit me and still rail me for my inadequacies. In time, the pain of the realisation will fade, leaving in its wake a clear space in which to build a truly magnificent future and that is precisely what I will do and I feel relieved of this burden, liberated once and for all, no turning back.
There is no reason for me to continue with it; I can simply let them go, they who would abuse me and exploit me and still rail me for my inadequacies. In time, the pain of the realisation will fade, leaving in its wake a clear space in which to build a truly magnificent future and that is precisely what I will do and I feel relieved of this burden, liberated once and for all, no turning back.
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