I have had the most beautiful morning of contemplation, relaxation and love! I was tired, having risen early to walk my dog desperate for immediate relief and had therefore taken a nap late morning. As I came downstairs with Lucky after my nap and put him down on the sofa next to where my partner too was snoozing, he snuggled in beside him to join him. I was touched by how much love he has to give and what pleasure he gets from showing his love by his snuggling close. He is such a deeply loving dog and as I made my way back upstairs to return to my contemplations in what you could describe as my meditation room, I was filled with warmth at this loving scene between two of the most important creatures in my life.
I went in armed with my laptop and once sat in my meditation pyramid, I saw a message a recent friend had sent me asking for loving prayers as she had been having a tough few days. Then, as I sent the following reply that felt relevant to give, I felt such love for her, this new friend who I know is on a sincere journey if self discovery herself:
“Aw, darling, I am sorry to hear that. I have indeed sent you loving energy to help you heal whatever it is you are healing at present - in times of healing it can feel worse than before, as things surface before finally leaving our energy field. Try not to despair or attach any meaning to it or to analyse it because nothing is wrong. I went through months of this just on one subject and through years of it in fact on and off, so I am now well acquainted with thee process. The good news is that in these times, it is all speeding up and healing so much quicker than before, so it will not last. Nurture yourself, follow your feelings - if you feel like sleeping, sleep; if you feel like eating, eat and don't worry about your weight, because right now it is more important to heal and to nurture yourself through it. Bless you darling, for ultimately all this is great news. Love, Maitland”.
I was so full of love by this time that another thought occurred to me to express to her to soothe her pain and help her along the way, so I sent her this too:
“By the way, there were many times I felt so bad, I felt I had taken several major steps back into darkness but these were just part of the process, so if you ever feel that way, remember my words: you never step backwards once you have chosen this path of self discovery and renewal as you have. Love to you sister X, Maitland”
By now full of love in my heart, something strange but wonderful happened, people who had hurt me so much in the past, people who had lied, cheated, betrayed and rejected me suddenly and unexpectedly came to mind, yet as I saw each one, each of whom I had already forgiven in order to free my soul from anger and resentment, I felt love for them: I felt I could have hugged each and every one if they had with me then. A step beyond forgiveness and compassion, this pure, unconditional love seemed to radiate from my chest, so powerful it was almost tangible; it is no exaggeration to say I felt it pouring from my heart and in its wake I felt a peace and calm euphoria, taking the healing of my own heart in forgiveness to yet another level altogether.
This upward spiral of loving energy, this virtuous circle of love that started with my gorgeous Lucky lifted my whole being and as I reflected on it, the words that came to me were, “This is who you really are” and I felt a profound peace and gratitude for all that had led me here including the injuries perpetrated upon me by those souls who I now saw for who they really are; that love that came from knowing who they are at heart and from a desire that they too find themselves as I have been blessed to do.
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