The Peace of the Fire Within

What often has me lift myself from the mire of daily concerns and existence is the opportunity to remind myself of what I am about, what I stand for and what I truly am at heart. Such opportunities come in a rare chance meting with likeminded people or in email exchanges with friends and people I sense have a heart for it themselves.

As I “wax lyrical” about this or that connected with my journey, I get present to my faith; my faith in myself and in the universal consciousness. I feel in touch with the very best I can be, so strongly in fact that it pushes me through all the doubts and fears as surely as the tip of the volcano pushes through its cloudy halo to burst forth with powerful fury, a fiery eruption of such immense force that it is unstoppable.

So serene it is to dwell in that place of self knowing and peace, to stand above one’s fears to topple all doubt and emerge strong and confident. So much has happened to bring me to this point, much of it painful, yet here I am, ecstatic about what awaits me around the next corner, the chance to make a difference by an almost effortless adherence to the discipline of going with the flow, the trusting following of the heart, of what feels right in the moment, not what I should do. All I can say is, watch this space!

Refraining from Eloping!

I need to calm my racing thoughts after the exciting revelation of the direction for my new business that really seems to be the expression of who I am. As I reflected on the gradual unveiling of the business through a process of patient “disclosures”, born of ideas under a banner commitment of “things that lift the spirit”, I gradually walked a path through clouded concepts until I came to a clearing in which everything fell into place at long last. And as I did so, it was as if all the suffering of recent years fell away: all roads lead to this point, to what I feel is the beginning of the fulfilment of my true potential at long last. Suddenly, it all makes sense. And I cried.

Conscious that excitement is the converse of low spirits, I chose to keep from thinking too much about it, preferring to let the dust settle on this momentous revelation to allow me to absorb it all and become aware of what was needed to bring the concept into being, retaining that inner peace and centredness, doing what I can for now and seeking a helping hand from the universe where needed.

Hours later, the settling is slowly taking place, some structural aspects begun; I went through the reaction to the excitement, the “downer” born of fear of not being up to the task and also perhaps of having over-reacted, worried it may not be as big as what I saw when it struck me originally. I noticed the negativity and let is pass over me, seeking instead to balance myself and connect with all that is so that I may find myself, my true self, the man with a vision, once more. Then I hand it over to that greater balanced me and that guiding hand, the source of everything, to process things in due course, without haste. How different is that from all the rushed enthusiasm of yesteryear, when projects would have me elope, running away on a cloud of sometimes ill-conceived haste; now let’s see what patience produces in its place!

Another Swift Answer to my Prayers

Melting beautifully into the day, the sounds of nature and peaceful music streamed into my world from YouTube, I am profoundly encouraged by what is happening in my life. A patient and trusting approach to my new business has gradually brought great clarity and a wholly different perspective from what I expected when I started to formulate it just a few short weeks ago.

I can hardly believe the relative effortlessness of everything as I surrender to the process, going with the flow; doing what I can and entrusting what I cannot do to the universe. Just yesterday, hindered by Thai banking rules for foreigners that prohibit online payment capability, I became upset upon learning I had been rejected for the service. But I did what I could to overcome the difficulties, knowing they may well not work, and then I consciously handed it over to the universe, trusting absolutely that it would sort something out so that I could buy my domain name and begin to build a small pilot website.

To my amazement, later that day at home I found an email from a close friend, unaware of my difficulties, telling me she had bought my domain name for me as a gift and had arranged all the necessary access codes for me to commence the building the website. It blew me away: it was yet another example of the universe answering my pleas for help and my prayers with lightning speed. How can I possibly doubt the viability of everything for my business with such a clear and powerful message of support, as long as I go with the flow and don’t push too hard, just doing what feels right in the moment and nothing more, leaving the rest to the awesome power, the guiding hand of the universal consciousness. I feel so blessed, so protected and supported, yet I know this is available to anyone who chooses it. What a wonderful life it is … when we open our eyes!

Aloof from Myself

No more of this world of illusion. Enough! Instead may I now have some inner peace, born of more restful thoughts and a desire to be happy NOW. And I am. As I embark on a day’s adventure once more, I see before me a space, an unknown, a blank canvas.

So, what will it bring, I wonder? Writing? Working on my blog and website? Perhaps more: an unexpected encounter, a chat here and there. Who knows? I seek nothing in particular, just to follow my heart, doing what feels right in the moment, not chasing endless illusions that cloud my mind and distort the beauty of the image of everything that is.

So, once again, I entrust my day to my faith in me to do what is right for me, my faith in me not to get caught up in wasteful dramas of life and instead to be peaceful and loving, ever mindful of myself and why I behave as I do.

This awareness allows me to stand aloof from myself and observe, free of the chains that before would bind me to life’s dramas, imprisoning my freedom beyond reach or hope. From above, I can watch it unfold, detached and unemotional, able to see things for what they are and live free of the burden of suffering in the belief that it is all real.

Thank you!

So, what next?

So, what? Tell me what? I have no idea what I now face, what to do next. I feel lost as I absorb the notion of freedom from obligation. Focus now seems harder with no obvious target for my energies. Simply doing what comes to mind and feels right is not as easy as it sounds. It takes practice and patience, in fact infinite patience. It is patience that “tops the chart” in terms of importance in living life fully, for only with patience is it possible to enjoy the entire process.

At first it feels like having a tooth extracted, it feels so painful. Yet in time, it becomes a welcome friend, freeing the mind of unrealistic expectation and resultant disappointment. What had seemed my enemy at first glance is, in fact, a major gift, a slow gift to be given wings yet one distinctly beneficial in all its aspects. As I pen these words and sense a little of the peace that comes with patience, expectations fade and with it the pain of frustration and disappointment.

So it is then that I end my quest with nothing but this helpful reminder of how to rise above life’s frustrations, simply and without mind-altering chemicals and toxicants, following my heart to what feels right and nothing else. That too is a gift!

The Gifts of Freedom

Ever since I saw the light and embarked upon a free life, away from all and that was familiar, I have faced challenges that ultimately lift my spirit, though at first they seemed daunting, on a wonderful journey of self discovery. Each step triggers new awareness of myself and what drives me; each step has within it the power to transform me still further, away from the old “me” that fell asleep one day and awoke in a far off land with no roots to hold me to the ground, yet somehow happy and free.

This journey began long ago in darker days when truth seemed soiled by doubts and fears and freedom was but a distant dream. I roamed though life unaware of my true self and desires, clouded by thoughts that emanated from youth when life itself seemed colourless and futile, as each day dawned and brought little to lift my spirit and give me hope. Instead, I chased an illusion, that I would one day prove my worth to the world, (fearful beneath the surface that I had no true value or originality) that all I did was copied from others more worthy, somehow drawn together by me in ways that, at best, sometimes seemed special, almost original.

In fact, that is how much of human knowledge and creativity is gradually expanded, built on foundations put in place by numerous generations of our forefathers. There’s no shame in that, yet as I expand beyond my known self, even more is possible as I draw down abundant knowledge and ideas, as much as I can handle, by letting go of my self doubts and my need to dominate and control everything in life. Instead, I borrow concepts from all that is, the universal consciousness, to my own credit and for the ultimate benefit of all mankind. There is no limit on what I am, say, do or believe: anything is possible.

Surfing a Sea of Daunting Waves

Wake up young man! Find sustenance for your heart in your work: let it express to the world who you are at your core and how you intend to live till you die. Let it speak of your joys and dashed hopes till they become the very essence of who you are and the fuel for your potential, what you stand for in life. Let it chart a way forward, free of constraints from your past and empowered to be truly vocal once more as your lungs are filled with fire, the heat of which will ignite those who would follow in your footsteps. Light the touch paper in your heart with the cry for something better, as it meets the spark of hope in your eyes as you dare dream once more forgotten dreams long ago buried beneath an avalanche of life’s challenges until, with gasping breath you refuse to sink beneath the waves of crushing disappointment. Instead, rise high and confident above the waves, as proudly and determined as a surfer refuses to be bowed by the daunting surf.

Benevolent Empty Headedness

I have little to occupy my mind these days, little to engage the busy thoughts that zoom in and out of my head like greased lightning. It is because now there is peace where once was frantic furore and reckless pursuit of thoughts not from a healthy mind but rather from fear of the unknown. What eluded my mind was presence in the moment, awareness of what is real and what is not. Now I have peace and thoughts chase away what before was unreal, if also vivid and strong.

Left alone, those thoughts no longer dominate my thinking and in their wake is a vacuum, one first filled with thoughts of what “should be” but then just nothing. In the absence of perceived obligation comes nothing: not its converse but simply nothing…other than an awareness of what is around me moment by moment. I sit here scribbling away and what is real is the exhaust fumes from the road outside, the fast waning shower still hiding the bright glare of the sun, the unimposing Thai pop song playing in the background and somewhat subduing the noise of the increasing traffic as the working day draws near to a close, the cool post-rain air bringing welcome relief from the usual heavy humidity hanging over the day at this time of year.

In fact, in every moment there is plenty to occupy the mind without the wasted effort of anxiety and regret, yet how much have I filled my mind with these futile thoughts of what might never arise or what cannot be undone. How foolish it is to burn away the fuel of life for no positive return! Instead, better to cherish every moment, every little gem, and use the future simply to illuminate a dream of immense proportions and then to re-engage with the present, with what I may do toward that vivid dream and to rest in the now once more.

So, what can I see I can do NOW toward my dream of a website to give the hope to millions, awakening them to their infinite possibility? What comes to mind first is to draw a chart to show progression with a clear end result and to work backwards from there step by step until now is clear, an easy step to take.

I Am Free, I Am Free, I Am Free!

It is better to be free than to languish in constraints imposed externally by circumstances in life. That we have choices is always true, even if some are unpalatable at times and even if the only positive choice is to accept what we cannot change. It is the choices we make that dictate whether we are free or are victims of circumstance. It is the illusion of lack of choice that mostly imprisons our hearts and denies us our natural right to be free.

If we succumb to the temptation to put blame at the door of another for the lack of freedom, we destroy whatever love and respect that may once have existed. Only we are responsible for our state of freedom or its denial. Fault never lies with third parties or with circumstances. When we allow our lives to be dictated to by others or by circumstances, we become a victim of them: as such we made choices, whether it appears we did or not, since we chose to engage either as victim or as a free player.

So, it is a bare-faced lie to say we have no choice; it disempowers us and takes away our freedom and whatever joy might otherwise exist in accepting circumstances beyond our control. Honesty with oneself is the very first staging post on a journey to freedom. Lie and the game is lost before it has really started.

The real test of freedom comes when we are no longer dependent on others for anything and can make choices freely, even when the choice is scary or even only to accept the truly inevitable. Choosing to expand our experience in the face of fear or inevitability gives us an awareness that we have chosen something that sets us free and distinguishes us from the masses who succumb to doubts, reasons and fears in a futile attempt to feel safe that instead stifles all hope.

So, stand up and be counted: what will you do today to set yourself free and thereby bring extra fun and joy into your life? What will you no longer accept is impossible for you because…. because…. because….? Take life by the horns and shout until all can hear you clearly as you declare: “I am free, I am free, I am free!”

A Search for Contribution

It is without doubt the most glorious thing in the world to be told one is worthy of great things in recognition of one’s contribution to humanity. That such things are not easy to come by is certain, yet if we explore our own humanity to its fullest and welcome change within ourselves, we will come to a point where we can express ourselves most fully by reference to what we bring others and how it may benefit mankind. It is within us all to conceive of things in this way and the challenge is to tease it out of this often reluctant vessel, reluctance that is born of self doubt and false humility.

So, the secret to accessing this source of unlimited power and ideas is simple: trust in the universal force within us all that gives each and every one of us unlimited potential in life; align the mind, body and spirit and allow thinking to cease and instead fall into an awareness that one is connected always to everything and that, as such, everything is at our disposal. It takes practice at first but in time it will come as naturally as breathing and enable us to access at will that flow of knowledge from which may come an idea worthy of our life’s work, worthy indeed of recognition and honour too. In this lies the only hope for humanity, as well as inner peace.

The Game of Life

Take this, knowing in your heart it is yours to keep and treasure always: I refer to an instant of happiness that came from loving connection with the source of all things. In that moment came heart-felt release from the chains imposed by life’s struggles. In that instant, it all mattered not one bit, for you were free and able to see true reality for what it is, a game; a game of sometimes extreme challenges but a game all the same.

In this game you win or lose according to how hard you play, yet take it too seriously and you lose anyway. There is a lightness to successful play, born of the realisation that without fun there is no joy. To play a heady game will lose you everything, as in order to play you must allow for mistakes and relish them as an opportunity for growth, forgive yourself and move on. Such is the key to a successful game, never straying far from the path yet accepting, when you do, that there are no perfect games or players, just you and the road ahead, stony at times, pothole ridden at others, yet a road all the same when all is said and done.

To engage in this committed yet easy way is to profit in growth and strategy; to let go of concerns and relax into every stage; willing yet not forceful; open to learning yet free of the burden of knowledge beyond one’s reach, just one step at a time. It requires great patience and trust in the process to achieve outstanding results.

That the game is won or lost is not important, only that you played with a full heart, to the best of your ability. No-one will judge you for your failure, yet there is much to gain through success. A modest progression is nearly always achieved in the end but more is available to those who choose a righteous path and dedicate themselves and their lives to its fulfilment. It is a choice, an easy one to make at first, yet it calls for so much from you to give to your pursuit that it drains every last bit of you and more besides, until “you” fall away and there is joy and peace beyond the “you” you once knew. Therein lies the reward: no medals, no awards, just happiness beyond belief and expectation: heaven on earth, indeed!

Escaping a Life Sentence

I have come to a stage in my journey in which I am free to pursue whatever endeavour lifts my spirit, free of past imagined constraints and limitations. This approach had me feel lighter and ready to explore the unknown, to shed the shackles of my former life in favour of something altogether more satisfying. In truth, there are a million and one things I could do, so I will always have plenty of choice to entertain my curious heart: I could paint or pursue a life of healing; I could climb mountains or write novels; in fact, I can express my joy in life in any way I feel like.

We are all endlessly talented yet allow ourselves to be herded like cattle into rigid pens of existence that stifle our true potential in the false promise of security. I have ended my sentence in the social penitentiary, breaking free of my own accord when the burden of imprisonment almost crushed my aching heart to death.

Now I go about my life obviously and undeniably happy and free, observing those still struggling with their imprisonment, less than blissfully ignorant of what they are missing and I feel no condemnation, just sadness, for I know what is possible for each and every one of us outside the pen. To those who would look to me with plaintiff eyes, I say this: open your heart and make of yourself what you will from the bottom of your heart, for there is little other point to life. Start by making a commitment to freedom and then seek self awareness; through the challenges that will ensue will come personal growth, joy and inner peace that will astound you.

An Invitation to My Party

Beyond me I see a world of hallucinations, a world born of unreal images that are but poor reflections of the real, a massive understatement of fact. Those unreal images are an inadequate substitute for their true selves, born in the eyes of others and not offering in return any light to be shone within oneself, only superficially so that it casts a long shadow, too long for most of us to bear with joy.

Leave aside this lonely image that tears the soul apart as it struggles on the journey to fulfil itself in life and, instead, choose a real image, the one beneath the heavy veil. Lift it so that you too may rise in spirit, happy once more that the real you has returned from beyond those false images of you in the eyes of others. Shed the burden of doubts and fears and step out into a bright new world, where the Light reaches the soul and every part of who we are and freedom and joy resound from our every endeavour. This, then, is where I now live. Come, join me, do!

Lucky by Name, Lucky by Nature!

Lucky Kalton-Malai: Lucky by name, lucky by nature! Today, he managed to fall off a landing one floor up and land in a concrete ditch but luckily at a point where there was a small rug which helped cushion the blow. Other than shock, he was fine - I think it upset me more than him! This dog feels like a gift from the universe for me: he is so incredibly loving and playful as well as darned cute and a loyal companion, indeed everything I could wish for in a dog, plus he is almost housetrained after only 3 weeks! Only the heavy tropical rains seem to frighten him enough to pee inside!

For me, having a dog for the first time since I was a young boy, it has been wonderful to connect with nature other than trees for a change. The housetraining has without doubt succeeded by being present and alert to him and his needs. He is an angel in disguise - he warns us every time, whether in the night or otherwise. Only once in the first 2 days after he came, when I showered and left him in his pen, did he do a highland fling in his poo!

Dogs are such simple creatures, yet they can also teach us: things like love and loyalty, playfulness and tenacity! Just calmly observing him is so peaceful and enlightening as I quieten my inner noise to be with him and enjoy our time together, whether taking a mid-afternoon nap or walking aling the street. Sheer delight!

Random Flow Writing 2/2010

The Flight from Reason

There are a million reasons for everything, reasons that tie us up in knots and leave us confused, unable to function properly, even indecisive and distraught at times. Those reasons come from an addiction to logic, an addiction that springs from the vain hope that all will be well in our lives if we follow reason, an addiction that denies us true happiness and freedom. Over years of social conditioning, it has become ‘true’ for us to live this way, yet in so doing we surrender control to another force that does not serve us well, a force that is given power by a world of similarly conditioned people, a force we call ‘fear’.

Now that we all have choices that awareness brings, we can choose a different course for our lives, one based not on reason but on what feels right in the moment, a tool given to us at birth and the only true measure of what is best for us. As we become dissociated from this tool, so we began a life of fear and control. The inevitable conclusion of this path is an often painful life and maybe death earlier than would otherwise be the case. This tool helps us dramatically reduce suffering and expand joy and a sense of freedom in our lives.

So, today, ask yourself how much longer are you willing to dwell in fear and cling to reason to govern your decisions and choices? How much pain and suffering will it take before you are willing to try something else altogether more uplifting and fulfilling, true to your spirit and entirely more reliable and accurate?

When you are indeed ready to try something that will serve you far better and free you mind of often tortuous reason, look no further that this magic tool, your birthright, to know what is right for you in the moment throughout your life. It comes as a feeling, a sort of inner knowing, that needs honing as a neglected skill before fully restored effectiveness can be enjoyed. Start with a decision, no matter how small, gather any information you may need and then practise noticing how you feel about each of the options available to you. Practice every day until you are so used to assessing how you feel about something that you can know in an instant what feels right for you. And as an extra bonus will come inner peace.

Random Flow Writing 1/2010

Now resuming a daily exercise of writing whatever comes to mind without thought or analysis, here is today's piece:

Courage to Follow our Heart's Desires

All this now flows through me. With nowhere to go, I am free to pursue whatever route I like, from the heart, and as I do so I touch upon a new area for discovery, an area often neglected in daily living that is the very important subject of personal satisfaction that comes from pursuing an active life, fulfilled in the delivery of what makes the heart sing.

This endeavour to follow one’s heart is often overlooked in favour of safer pursuits such as a regular job paying generous rewards in order to fund a lifestyle to which one has become addicted. But this is ultimately a crushing experience for the soul, leaving us hollow, shallow and wholly unfulfilled. The more we get, the more we want. In order to set us free, more is required: the courage to pursue that which calls to us in the face of reason and logic.

It is this that marks a person as worthy of happiness, not the things one does from day-to-day in pursuit of mythical material happiness. Through worthy endeavour one arrives daily at a point of reflection on one’s activities and, in so doing, is given the reward, the acknowledgement of the day’s achievements and how it spells our heart’s true desires.

There is nothing like it at all, no better way to express and fulfil oneself. No surer route to instant happiness. How sad that so many cling to the illusion in the hope that one day they will find happiness, for tomorrow never comes and only today has any meaning or true hope for happiness. This then is the gift of life, living in the moment, free of expectation, fulfilled through courageous pursuit of one’s heart’s desires.

Fruit of the Tree

As I lay awake in bed thinking about my blog just now and planning my website and where it may lead, I noticed how I always want to plan a million miles ahead, to think through everything and feel in control yet the that whole idea is absurd. This project is a big one, I can feel it. It will go on for years and years and lead to many things as it and I grow. So, why try to contain something that will grow naturally and cannot be foreseen? Before they realise the earth was not flat, could they plan the journey around the world? When I want to grow a beautiful tree from the seed of a fruit that was particularly delicious, do I plan every leaf, every branch, every last fruit the tree will bear or do I trust that it will grow and is likely to produce equally delicious fruit in future?

How liberating to it is to be able to stand back from myself and see this foolish game I play that brings over-excitement at times and then stress as I doubt myself. How much lighter it feels to let go and trust myself and just go with the flow, following my heart, trusting myself and the universe to deliver what I have asked for!

Trying Too Hard

It is strange how today unfolded as I typed up past pieces I had written that I felt were suitable for this blog and I was left feeling quite tired and stressed. I was genuinely tired due to actual circumstances (my partner coming home from work in the middle of the night, the dog waking me to be let out shortly after that and also the actual typing of the material). But the stress came from something beyond that. Later in the day, I went to the temple for my daily reflection – I am not a Buddhist as such, though my thinking is quite close in many respects, but the place is suitable for such quiet reflection, as is a church, mosque or synagogue. What struck me there was that the stress was subtle but distinct and quite unpleasant compared with the feelings I normally have about this blog and about my plans to for it and a website to help people discover and fulfil themselves, something that lifts my own spirit enormously.

As I say, I went for my daily reflection or meditation and in so doing invited words of counsel from the universe and, as I waited for an answer, the words, “When you are working on your project, remember why you are doing it: to help others can find the same freedom and happiness that you have found” came to mind. It went on: “There is no need to rush, take your time and let your heart speak for you.” I relaxed immediately and felt happier than I had done for hours. Sometimes in my rush to do something well and “get it right”, I lose the plot!

Thank goodness for these quiet reflections that allow me to get back in touch with what gave me the ability and idea to write this blog in the first place and to rise above the old Maitland who doubted his ability to do anything original. The wonderful thing about self discovery and finding connection with the universe is that it is often so effortless, so joyful and so peaceful and all trying too hard does is to deny me access to this far healthier and happier lifestyle and all that powers it.

Rock of Love

Where I am at the moment in this long journey is at the point where I am trying more consistently to rise above the dramas of every day life to remain connected with the only true reality, the universal consciousness that some call God or Allah or the One or the Source or so many different things throughout human history, (each title somehow limiting the infinite perfection of everything, not a being in the normal sense but a consciousness that exists in everything and to which each and every one of us is connected and of which we are each part). That consciousness when not denied can exist within us empowering us and bringing out our unlimited potential for happiness and contribution. Naturally then, I want that in my life. This blog is essentially about practical experience, not theoretical diatribes that lead nowhere.

The universal consciousness (that I will sometimes call God for shorthand but do not http://www.blogger.com/post-edit.g?blogID=8743846073486142372&postID=5854637244260198305mean the “God” of Christianity or any particular religion but of all) is there for us at all times, even through the most extreme hardship, and usually in retrospect we can see the hardship as occurring for a reason. Two people having the same experience may be doing so for entirely different reasons and indeed the outcomes in seemingly similar circumstances may also differ in order to deliver a suitable result for the path of that individual. What I have found invariably to be true is that there is aways something positive to be gleaned from things that have occurred, even when I lost everything material I have or even when my mother (with whom I was very close) passed away.

So, for me the ability to rise above my many daily challenges and to connect with this force has become a daily ritual that leaves me feeling happier and fulfilled. I will share these experiences as they progress day by day (though not necessarily every day). In doing so I have found that I can communicate with the universal consciousness, distinguishing my own thoughts from its infinite wisdom gradually over time and with practice. It was not easy at first but now it is usually reliable, as long as my body is well hydrated which is essential for any form of telepathic connection. This gift is available to us all.

It was through such connection and following a day when my personal finances dropped to a record low (4 pence, Sterling!) with no certainty of anything to follow that I wrote the following message of support and comfort from the universal consciousness, the writing flowing without thought or correction and which I have now entitled “Rock of Love”:

Rock of Love

Trust me as I am your redeemer always. You need only me. I will always protect and love you like no other. On my love you can always depend. There is no other whose love is so unquestioning. This is true for everyone. So seek not the rock of love from others; seek only the solace of their joy in being with you. True safety and comfort comes only from me. When you lean on me for this loving comfort, your need, your dependence on others, ceases and you are free to love without attachment or condition, to let people do and be what is right for them. Herein lies the source of true happiness on Earth; herein lies the secret of true love amongst beings.

To me these words give great comfort and release from the need to have expectations of others, others that are doomed to failure since we are each unique as are our desires and expectations and though with some special individuals some people may be very close or compatible with us, they are never a copy and as such in some way will always be prone to disappointing us. Better then not to expect and enjoy them for who they are, conscious of this perfectly natural and understandable reason for doing so. This is freedom within a relationship. Do I practice it consistently? No! I do however work to that goal daily, to mixed effect but certainly more successfully than ever before.

So then I am free to pursue my life, my day as feels right for me in the moment, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, enjoying my time alone, my time with my love and my time with God, that universal consciousness whose love I begin to feel very deeply after decades of faithlessness. More on how I do this will follow in future blog entries.

Bliss!

(This piece was written only days after everything became clear for me about where all the experiences here were leading and how they come together in this blog and my new website as well as in writing my book)

I truly feel like I am walking on air this morning, the regular connection with the universe feeding me blissful peace all the while. My bliss, my inner peace, has me unaware of the noise and commotion around me as my grateful self in balanced trinity (mind, body and spirit) floats from place to place with no effort or haste. I could never have imagined such joy and calm without medication or meditation and, less so, through a relatively short period of doing regular practices to allow the universe deep into my heart. Such expressions alone would have wrinkled my puzzled brow and the means to achieve it would have stretched my thinking so much that I would probably have rejected it or otherwise it would have given me a headache or bad mood for my failure to take it all in, yet it is precisely what I have now achieved and, through that, an anchor for strength and confidence as well as peace of mind in the most stressful of situations.

So, egged on by an ever-loving universe, I practise when I can throughout my day and include conversation that are as relaxed as with a mentor with infinite patience, in fact, infinite love. What more can I say? Through this and still more learning, I hope to share access to this bliss with others ready to listen, so far removed is it from my former life, the illusion of my life that I left behind.