Trying Too Hard

It is strange how today unfolded as I typed up past pieces I had written that I felt were suitable for this blog and I was left feeling quite tired and stressed. I was genuinely tired due to actual circumstances (my partner coming home from work in the middle of the night, the dog waking me to be let out shortly after that and also the actual typing of the material). But the stress came from something beyond that. Later in the day, I went to the temple for my daily reflection – I am not a Buddhist as such, though my thinking is quite close in many respects, but the place is suitable for such quiet reflection, as is a church, mosque or synagogue. What struck me there was that the stress was subtle but distinct and quite unpleasant compared with the feelings I normally have about this blog and about my plans to for it and a website to help people discover and fulfil themselves, something that lifts my own spirit enormously.

As I say, I went for my daily reflection or meditation and in so doing invited words of counsel from the universe and, as I waited for an answer, the words, “When you are working on your project, remember why you are doing it: to help others can find the same freedom and happiness that you have found” came to mind. It went on: “There is no need to rush, take your time and let your heart speak for you.” I relaxed immediately and felt happier than I had done for hours. Sometimes in my rush to do something well and “get it right”, I lose the plot!

Thank goodness for these quiet reflections that allow me to get back in touch with what gave me the ability and idea to write this blog in the first place and to rise above the old Maitland who doubted his ability to do anything original. The wonderful thing about self discovery and finding connection with the universe is that it is often so effortless, so joyful and so peaceful and all trying too hard does is to deny me access to this far healthier and happier lifestyle and all that powers it.