Benevolent Empty Headedness

I have little to occupy my mind these days, little to engage the busy thoughts that zoom in and out of my head like greased lightning. It is because now there is peace where once was frantic furore and reckless pursuit of thoughts not from a healthy mind but rather from fear of the unknown. What eluded my mind was presence in the moment, awareness of what is real and what is not. Now I have peace and thoughts chase away what before was unreal, if also vivid and strong.

Left alone, those thoughts no longer dominate my thinking and in their wake is a vacuum, one first filled with thoughts of what “should be” but then just nothing. In the absence of perceived obligation comes nothing: not its converse but simply nothing…other than an awareness of what is around me moment by moment. I sit here scribbling away and what is real is the exhaust fumes from the road outside, the fast waning shower still hiding the bright glare of the sun, the unimposing Thai pop song playing in the background and somewhat subduing the noise of the increasing traffic as the working day draws near to a close, the cool post-rain air bringing welcome relief from the usual heavy humidity hanging over the day at this time of year.

In fact, in every moment there is plenty to occupy the mind without the wasted effort of anxiety and regret, yet how much have I filled my mind with these futile thoughts of what might never arise or what cannot be undone. How foolish it is to burn away the fuel of life for no positive return! Instead, better to cherish every moment, every little gem, and use the future simply to illuminate a dream of immense proportions and then to re-engage with the present, with what I may do toward that vivid dream and to rest in the now once more.

So, what can I see I can do NOW toward my dream of a website to give the hope to millions, awakening them to their infinite possibility? What comes to mind first is to draw a chart to show progression with a clear end result and to work backwards from there step by step until now is clear, an easy step to take.