The Power of Commitment

In the past 48 hours I had been exchanging emails with a friend who was very down about her progress in life lately and even I feel victim to my own doubts and fears a bit in the last 24 hours. As I shared with her about the importance of being committed to yourself and to fulfilling your life purpose, things really shifted with my friend who wrote back sharing about the insights gained as a result and also talking about her work as being her truth. I explain this so you can make sense of my reply:

Dear [Anon]

For me the power of commitment is huge. When making one, we are saying we will do it, not that, as I said yesterday, we will “try” and it pulls us through our doubts and fears. How I see your "little wobbly" & mine is that we forgot our commitment for a moment and so the 1st thing I do is forgive myself and I invite you to do the same. Then we just dust ourselves off and get on with it! Same rules: just keep on doing what feels right till the moment we die. It really is that simple and when we get upset it is because we have allowed ourselves to get caught up in the drama of the illusion for a while. I can see it now for myself and I plod on patiently again. I really see it like running a marathon.

I would say that for me truth is very very high level - love - the rest is not truth but what you stand for and choose. So, for me, my truth is that I am pure love and am here to spread love and light to as many people as I can possibly reach. I set myself aspirations for that (many millions of people to reach) but that is detail and in some ways unimportant. In fact, I am love, compassion and integrity, a teacher and a writer. These are all subsets of the main thing. So some way down the list is the work I will do on the retreats in furtherance of the higher level stuff. I see it similarly for you - your work is the means of delivery of something that you wish to bring about and so it is not your truth but an important vehicle for the fulfilment of your purpose in this life.

Do you see what I mean? This is something I have been aware of for some time - it really helps to give clarity whilst not getting attached to detail - the retreats are a detail. No need for attachment. Sure, they will be powerful and an expression of the highest me, but that is all they are. They are not me. Indeed, I will do retreats for as long as it feels right but I know I also have much more I intend doing with my life, some of it I have a vague idea about and others I am still clueless about since in the current paradigm they are beyond my comprehension.

Why I am telling you this is not to "correct" you as such but to help you stand back from things and see yourself - when I do this, I see us as high spirits looking down at ourselves (I guess I am saying that what I am expressing here is a perspective from our higher selves, beyond our silly dramas from this life). I actually find it most uplifting to express it in this way, almost as if I have taken myself in hand like a naughty child and have set him straight and he is now happily sat at his toy (my Macbook) playing and sharing with his close friend! It brings a tear to my eye as I say it. LOL! I really see me as the little boy here and you are my little friend and we are in a playpen together as we both got upset with our toys!!! ROFL! It really is a very vivid picture for me right now!

In fact, looking at you again, seeing yourself from "up here" allows you to see the toys for what they are and not to take them too seriously. It is not to belittle my retreats or your own work but they are vehicles and nothing more. Our choice of partners are fellow travellers for however long both parties wish - again, nothing more. When we do our work we will be very happy as any child would be with the toy of their dreams but all toys become boring after a while and we will move on when the time is right. Retreats are not my life’s work as I have been saying. They are the highest expression of my life so far and of my higher self too but later there will be more if I remain "up for it" and how far we go is up to us individually. I know my higher self has set a path that stretches way beyond my imaginings at this time but that is OK. Its fun watching it unravel.

I feel so happy now, at peace with myself and no longer frustrated or fearful.


I hope this helps.

Love

Maitland