Sunday, 7 November 2010

Responsibility vs Blame

When someone tells us we should take responsibility for something, we usually react as though we are being told to take the blame. But this is not necessarily true at all, though, granted, it does depend on the intention of the person who is saying it!

If you asked me what is the most powerful thing I have done in the last 10 years, it would have to be “taking responsibility...for my life”. When we think it is other people, circumstances or events that are responsible for making our life other than “is should be”, we are not taking responsibility, we are being victims; victims of those other people, circumstances and events. If we do that, we are lost: there is no hope for recovery until we can see why and how we are responsible.

”Are you telling me that when I got the sack, it was my fault?!” No! But I am saying that you are responsible for your life and for the things you attract into it (by the now quite famous “law of attraction”). It means our fears and negative expectations or doubts act like a beacon and bring them to us. So, if you fear being unemployed or redundant, you make it much likelier to happen.

Taking responsibility, on the other hand, doesn’t let someone who has wronged us off the hook. So if that feared dismissal was unfair and you happen to live in a country that had laws against such things, maybe you will be entitled to compensation. But you are still responsible. The complaining and wriggling that it is otherwise will simply draw a similar lesson to you until it is well learnt.

As a man whose first forty-five years largely involved denying his worst fear of worthlessness and ending up insolvent (though luckily not bankrupt), I brought about my worst fear by the law of attraction, thus, in a way proving myself “right”: I was indeed worthless and very painful it was indeed!

If I were to bore you with the entire story, I am sure that if I wasn’t accepting responsibility I could easily tell you a whole tale of woes, of wrongdoings and inadequacies of other people and some of it might be true but nothing will detract from the fact that I am responsible for what happened because I caused it by my fears. A person who ends up being beaten by their spouse may be be “to blame”, the spouse definitely having something to be responsible for themselves, but that person created it by how s/he was being in life and/or by attracting people who do that sort of thing.

Saturday, 6 November 2010

From a Distance - Bette Midler

This wonderful old song sums up my dream of how the world will be and I promise to work to this end. God is watching us from a distance, and giving us enormous helping hand, but we have to deliver the results ourselves and we will. I have no idea how - like how to eat an elephant: one mouthful at a time (sorry to those lovely creatures which I have no desire to eat!).



The wonderful lyrics read:

From A Distance: Bette Midler

From a distance the world looks blue and green,
and the snow-capped mountains white.
From a distance the ocean meets the stream,
and the eagle takes to flight.

From a distance, there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
It's the voice of hope, it's the voice of peace,
it's the voice of every man.

From a distance we all have enough,
and no one is in need.
And there are no guns, no bombs, and no disease,
no hungry mouths to feed.

From a distance we are instruments
marching in a common band.
Playing songs of hope, playing songs of peace.
They're the songs of every man.
God is watching us. God is watching us.
God is watching us from a distance.

From a distance you look like my friend,
even though we are at war.
From a distance I just cannot comprehend
what all this fighting is for.

From a distance there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
And it's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves,
it's the heart of every man.

It's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves.
This is the song of every man.
And God is watching us, God is watching us,
God is watching us from a distance.
Oh, God is watching us, God is watching.
God is watching us from a distance

Spiritual Freedom - Refinements

Expanding upon the two pieces I wrote yesterday I have been thinking about that beautifully simple way to live with one’s limitations by transcending them.

I refer to the simple advice on how to deal with the judgments that come to mind as one goes about one’s daily life, the energy of which is negative and ugly and holds one back. In fact, the advice was given to me to deal with my own shortcomings and consists simply of the following:

Observe:
notice that you have made a judgment or criticism;

Let it go
consciously step away from it and stop thinking about it;

Remember, it is not who you are

I find its simplicity beautiful, its impact peaceful. I love it.

So this reminded me of a more advanced practice I have tried to adopt lately which makes the process even more powerful and lifts your spirit even more (in other words, it “raises your vibration” further).

It is simple too: after you let go and remember that the judgments and criticisms are not who you are, all you do is:

Bring your attention to love:
think about someone you love unconditionally or who loves you unconditionally - it could be a favourite pet, a parent or child, a spouse/love one or even a figurehead like Jesus, Mohammed or Buddha

OR

Bring your attention to God/Allah/the Universe
whose love in unlimited and unconditional - it is this that I usually do and this had by far the greatest long term impact, especially when repeated throughout my day

I can honestly say that when I remember to do this, I am far happier, more grounded, more at peace and more creative than ever.

Making Amends with Yourself

Make amends with yourself and you will feel as if you can fly, since doing so involves forgiveness and loving kindness towards the most important person in your life, YOU; forgiveness and loving kindness for all the disappointments, failures and wrongdoings in your life so far.

It draws a line in the sand that clears the way for other more joyful and exciting things in future, liberating the burdened spirit to pursue its desires free of the constraints of the past self-judgments, criticisms and failures that hold your heart back and force you into a life less satisfying and rewarding that it could be.

If I could but express how desperately painful and retarding it has been to suppress all these emotions for so long, I feel I could dissuade the entire world from living with such deep, destructive pain a moment longer, thereby liberating the whole planet in the process. All my inadequate words can express for now is that I feel so very hollow, so deeply drained by the buried emotions as they slowly surface and drift away, tears of recognition of all the pain and lost opportunity occasionally welling up spontaneously, seemingly from nowhere, and further evacuate me of those poisonous emotions that have lurked within me, buried deep within every cell of my body for decades.

The resultant vacuum will slowly fill with whatever opportunistic energies I may accumulate in life, so it is better that I choose to fill it now with energy to lift my spirit and empower me as I journey on. I therefore ask the universal consciousness to fill the new vacant spaces within me with its loving energy...because I can and because I would far rather have that than all the poison I unwittingly lived with until now.

Friday, 5 November 2010

Spiritual Freedom - A Personal Challenge

My deep desire for the unification of mankind and for world peace that I wrote about in the preceding piece is something I am totally committed to yet the very idea of the commitment scares me. How on earth can we jump from where we are now to such a different place in my lifetime? Many would say it is impossible but I don’t believe in the impossible: everything is possible if you truly believe in it.

But why it scares me is because I know that I myself struggle with opinions and judgments which, if allowed to reign free, would prevent such an ambitious goal ever coming close to fruition. If I feel judgmental and critical with all my self development, how can I expect most other people to do it. It starts with me (“Be the change you wish to see in the world”, Mahatma Ghandi) and indeed it sort of ends with me in that I cannot change anyone else, only myself.

With this in mind, as I pondered what I had written earlier, fearing I sounded a little pompous and self righteous, I asked the universe, “What can I do about my own judgments, as I am worried I often think judgmental things, yet I don’t like it?” and the answer that came was short and sweet: “Observe, then let go; this is not who you are”. The words were so simple and immediately brought peace to my concern. We live in an imperfect world and to expect to be perfect is unrealistic and indeed unduly restrictive and self punitive.

In essence, what it means is, notice that you are making the judgments in the first place, then let them go, stop thinking about it and remember you are better than such things, that you are, at heart, a far better person than someone who judges others. It brings to mind, “How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the splinter out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the splinter from your brother's eye.” (Luke 6:42).

I am suitably behumbled by the awareness this has rekindled, something that will ideally form part of a life long personal discipline and over time the noise of the judgments will fade away and leave me in peace and living my dream.

Spiritual Freedom

I always say that my spirituality is entirely personal and I never seek to persuade anyone to believe in what I do, I simply share my experiences and my beliefs and people are free to pick and choose what feels right for them, if anything. I do, however, ask for respect for my beliefs, not to be judged for them or for being me. I try to live a good life and generally succeed and I am worthy of more than people’s judgments.

Each of us is unique because our experiences and our choices are unique - individual things may be common enough but what makes us unique is the particular mix and match of experiences that are ours. So, it is unrealistic to think that we can be the same as anyone else and, indeed, it is most unattractive. But why then do people seek to put us in boxes and insist we all follow the same beliefs. Where is the love and freedom in that? It is fear-ridden and intolerant. Such things are so much less that what God or the universal consciousness are about, the unconditional love that is everything.

As I have ventured along the path to where I am now, I have gradually met more and more people who seek a freer sort of spirituality, whether or not within the broad guidelines of their familiar or chosen religion. I myself follow any and all major spirits behind a whole range of religions from Jesus to Mohammed, from Buddha to Shiva and my main guiding light other than the One is Kwan Yin, the spiritual head of Mahayana Buddhism, yet I am not a Buddhist. I love God, I love Jesus, I love Mohammed and I love all the others I have named and many more who came to serve mankind. I am dedicated to one God, one world, to the unification of mankind and to peace on Earth. Does it mean then that because I don’t see Jesus as the only way to God that I am doomed to eternal hell fire? I don’t believe so for an infinite, loving God would never do such a thing. Yet they are as entitled to their beliefs as I am to mine. All I ask is not to have a judgmental finger wagged in my face!

As I meet others on a path of freedom in spirituality I find a non-judgmental acceptance, a belief in themselves and a sense of love and kindness that is not common in today’s world. It is this that gives me hope for the future, for a world of mutual respect of religious and spiritual beliefs, of cultural differences and, above all, of the many things that unite all mankind: the desire to love and be loved unconditionally, to live an abundant and healthy life free from poverty and disease. All this is the promised land for me, a land I am committed towards helping bring about.

Thursday, 4 November 2010

My Experiences of Having and Being Lucky!

I am 52 years old and I have never had a pet that has lived out its natural life. For one reason or another since I was a boy we had pets, failed to perform our part of the bargain in looking after them (or they proved too much trouble in the case of the cute but undisciplined Cairn Terrier we had when I was 7 whose party trick was to pee on all our guests at the house without fail!) and they had to go. A dog, some guinea pigs, two budgies and a rabbit. In the end, we gave them up, so I never really got close to an animal.

Many years later, my mother had a beautiful pedigree tri-colour basset hound called Tanya, but when my mother became very ill with Alzheimer’s and had to go in a home for 24-hour care, I still had my legal practice and that is one dog that should never be left alone all day, so reluctantly we parted with her - three times before we got the right home for her, each parting more painful than the last.

I see that I really loved her but I kept something back or else I don’t think I could have let her go. I feel as though my experience from childhood taught me not to get too close to animals as they will eventually go and, indeed, that become true even of Tanya, albeit my own choice.

So it was with some reluctance that I agreed about 6 months ago with my partner that we would eventually have a dog and then in a matter of weeks I saw a beautiful little West Highland Terrier puppy in a pet shop nearby. There were several, in fact, but I felt drawn to this particular one: not the cutest of the pack but there was something in that look as he turn his head to the side as we were leaving, as if to say “Well...aren’t you going to take me home with you then?”! On enquiry I had discovered they were as expensive here in Thailand as in the West, not least since they are quite rare here. Nevertheless, I made up my mind to have him eventually, when resources would allow. I knew somehow we would get him.

For the next 10 weeks, money got shorter and shorter and every time I went to the shopping centre where the pet shop is located, I would drop in to see him, though never going inside or holding him. I would go at least 3 or 4 times a week, sometimes more. Slowly, as he got older, the price went down but my resources would not even stretch to that. Finally I got some more work in after 10 weeks and on enquiry not only was the price down some 40% on the original price but they offer me a further 20% off that price as they had watched me coming time and time again and felt I would make a good keeper for him. It was a rare but genuine offer and I was very pleased to take them up on it.

A day later we brought him home, all groomed and ready for us and he was at home with us straight away. That said, when my partner was out working on the second evening that Lucky was with us and I was getting ready for bed, I put Lucky into the pen we put him in overnight, next to our own bed, and went for my shower as usual. Lucky was excited, I could hear, but I had to shower so I carried on and when I came out, oh my gosh, what a smell! I had missed the sign that he need to go out and he had done a fairly generous poo in the pen but not contented with that he had danced in it in all his excitement! It was all over the floor, his paws, some of the sides of the pen and even beyond the pen on the outside floor and walls! I think he set out to re-paint it all!

I was upset at the time and quickly lifted him out, first focused on washing him down with water with a smattering of Dettol then I set about cleaning up the rest. I was really exhausted by the time my amused partner came home!

Thankfully that experience has not been repeated and he was house trained in days to 80-90% reliability and with two weeks almost completely. What I find really fascinating about having had Lucky come into my life is how much it has altered me. He is so loving and loyal. Sure he is sometimes naughty and we do have a blue-moon incident such as him jumping off the floor above us in our apartment block, running down the main road untethered and refusing to come back and narrowly missing motorbikes and even a car plus a couple of pees on our bed! But, by and large, I would say he is somewhat of an angel!

Every morning when he wakes up he likes to spend time along side us (I swore I would NEVER allow a dog on my bed!) and when his urge to go out for a pee or whatever gets strong, he starts licking our faces and feet and if we are feeling tired or lazy, he will eventually start to bark gently until we have no choice but to get up!

I love how he can sense my moods so easily - I had tears over my dear late mother this morning and he noticed and came running over as if to say “There, there!”, showering me with wet kisses, as I call them. We are not perfect pet owners I am sure but we try really hard and why wouldn’t we? He is like a child to us and we adore him. Even when I sneeze, he comes running over to make sure I am OK (as I had a bad cold recently and he saw me suffering like most men - badly!).

As I said, he has changed me. I feel very close and whenever I think of him I feel very warm inside. I hate being away from him for long as he does me (and his other “parent”!) and I see that each of my partner and I have different strengths with him. My partner is more playful and indulgent whereas I am perhaps stricter but very calm and loving and actually he takes to me more in terms of doing as he is told. No need to shout loud (I occasionally slip up with that but generally I prefer the calm approach) and I am at great pains to praise his good deeds. He is 7 months old now and he has been with us just over 3 months, yet without any real attempt at training (nothing formal at all) he will usually obey my instruction. He will sometimes even obey signals accompanied by a simple clear intention that he obey. If he gets excited, it is less effective, but he amazes me how much he does do what I tell him. He knows when he is wrong and comes to call most of the time now. I love that when he can see it is time for bed, he sits on our bed and looks into the pen and if we ignore him he makes his funny growling sound that is so cute that it makes me feel I could almost eat him!

What I find most moving is that through my love and sense of connection with him, I have found myself feeling for other animals a lot more, sensing their feelings and pain at times. It is a lovely feeling, an extension of the connection I already felt with nature in terms of trees and scenery but now with animals too. It is glorious and I see so much richness but also sadness at how others miss out on the wonders of nature. I don’t judge them as I was the same until relatively recently, but I pray they too find it because once they do, there can be no more of the abuse of nature all over the world and I thank God for bringing me Lucky as my lesson: it is I who am indeed lucky!

Healing as a Source of a Better Life

I am still going through that very important healing that I though complete several days ago, the healing to do with things that happened when I was three that had me decide I was worthless. As I do so, I have had some important reminders of what it takes to receive the healing and how to deal with the symptoms as the healing progresses and I thought I would sum them up here in case they are useful to anyone else.

The first thing to say is that the universe always respects one particularly important law, the law of free will that says that in order to experience new things we must make our own choices, free from interference from others. We may be jolted, guided and even pushed sometimes but in the end it is our choice whether or not to follow the guidance. Some of us stubbornly hold on to things that would be better “healed” or transcended but that is our choice. This is important because it is vital to understand that unless we exercise our free will in some way, the healing cannot take place.

The next step is to choose healing and that if fine if we are aware we could do with it, but, if not, how can we exercise free will when we are not even aware there is an issue? Well, there are many ways other parts of our being (subconscious, body, soul, etc) may try to communicate with us. The body will express things through ailments and injuries: so feeling burdened might manifest as shoulder or back ache for example; the subconscious may push ideas into your conscious mind or give you dreams that are a clue; the soul may do the same as the subconscious mind. So it is that we receive clues - most commonly in the form of pain. We may also experience emotional pain too, such as depression, anxiety, sadness, anger, jealousy, etc. Once picked up, they allow us to act, so the key is to notice these communications or clues.

Acting requires that we communicate our consent to a healing, to overcoming the cause of the symptom. This can be done in prayer or quiet reflection, addressing our minds to the universe, God, or whichever entity is special for you, from your guides or angels to archangel, religious figures such as Jesus, Mother Mary, Mohammed, Buddha, and so on. There is no “right one” though physical healing is often well supported by Archangel Raphael, for example.

The key thing is that, whatever your belief system (my own is totally cosmopolitan), you communicate your desire for healing and that opens the doors, free will having been exercised. In my case, I am almost constantly going through healings that take me and my vibration higher and higher. Why? Because my free will was exercised by promising to have the best life possible and to not stop until I do so and also by promising to serve the universe as it wills, so overriding my own will and allowing it to answer my commitment and prayer by slowly working to strip away the illusions I have accumulated that have me feel less than “healthy” in all areas of my life. Such things are available to all who have the desire (and courage?) to make such a commitment. There is no price, no charge and there are many rewards, but it can be tough at times.

Once a healing has begun, there is usually no need for any further action on your part. It happens of its own accord. There may be things that can facilitate it or alleviate any symptoms, but that is all. Sometimes we may be guided to visit a health practitioner and, if so, follow what feels right. Don’t do it only because you feel you “should”.

So, what is the experience of healing like and how do I deal or cope with it? The experience varies according to whatever it is that is being worked on. Very often, as it involves being “blasted” with positive energy, it can often leave one feeling tired, drained, even low of spirit, as one goes through it. Another common experience is that the very feelings or emotions that are being healed may suddenly surface and you may feel worse for a while - or if the healing has come in response to pain, it may get worse before it gets better. Pain will often come where none existed before as part of the process of removing the negative energy that resides inside ones body, stored from past events and emotions. This was what happened to me in the early stages of the current healing and indeed, as the issue for me was very deep, very old and very important, I was sometimes in agony. That is fortunately pretty rare though.

The important thing to alleviate any temporary suffering (physical or emotional) is to understand that it is just part of the healing process and should not be feared but merely accepted until it clears as it will inevitably do in time. The deeper the issue, the longer it takes and the more severe the symptoms will usually be. But this is all positive and is worth the temporary inconvenience. You may find you get a cold or food poisoning or eczema (I have had all these and many others!). I don’t like it but I try to accept it as all healing is quicker if it is not fought with or resisted. I have had so many symptoms, especially since I stepped up my game in the last 2-3 years - I am someone normally blessed with good health so it does take a little getting used to.

Another thing that is important to understand is that whilst healings are often profound and permanent, there is always another level it can be taken to and if you really take your life on, as I am doing, you will need to accept that things will therefore come around again, not because the healing didn’t work before but to take it to a much higher level. That is what is happening for me now - I have been through things before starting with simple awareness but this is a much higher level that will remove most of the symptoms of its presence on my psyche.

So, there you have it, the essence of what it takes to be able to receive healing including different choices for how they are instigated, whether automatically or in response to a positive request for support and healing. It will therefore be appreciated that unless you have make an open-ended commitment and promise like mine, you have to take action to receive it and that can only happen when you are aware there is an issue. The main triggers will be physical complaints, especially recurring ones, and emotional discomfort or suffering such as anger, loneliness, frustration, jealousy, low self esteem, etc.

I will leave you with one thought: do you want a better life, a life where nothing is missing and you experience a lot more joy than pain? If so, you need to choose healing as the source of fulfilment of who you are and of happiness as well as good health (which are, of course, all inter-related).

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

The Gift of Impermanence

The end of all things comes in time: be it slow or fast, let it be, for you and I are no more permanent than anything, yet we are also eternal. Our soul speaks for generations who have gone before us in each life, collecting experiences and knowledge along the way. There are few who remember in this life what went before, but the imprint of the past lies indelible within our energy field, our soul, and is never gone.

So it is then that we will also carry things from this life into the next and so on beyond until we are replete of experience and no longer need to incarnate on our journey back to the source of all things, our Father who is everything. With this in mind, spend life’s opportunity wisely, not frugally: be generous and free of mind, body and spirit and let you wholeness lead you to hitherto unimaginable heights.

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

Back to Basics

Sometimes as we grow we face challenging lessons and as we do that it is easy to feel sorry for ourselves and forget all the good things in our lives. I fall into this trap with alarming regularity but I do now know I will always come through as indeed I am going through one right now. I am this time not feeling sorry for myself but I will be pleased to come through it, as I always do.

But when I do indulge in self pity for a while, I am sometimes blessed to see something to remind me how silly, even shameful, it is to think in such ways. Here is a video that takes me back to basics and triggers my inner strength every time!