I feel glorious today: still “financially constrained” and facing my concerns for my dear brother which is about to go in for emergency surgery to remove an aggressive cancerous growth in his mouth, I do what I feel is right in furtherance of that concern, things prompted by an intuitive knowing of the root cause of his illness, then I let go and consciously connect with the universal consciousness, “God”, leaving It to deal with the rest within the generous confines of free will.
Then, making our way to visit my partner’s second cousin, a short journey away into the country, I continue to process thoughts and repeatedly reconnect with the universe and I feel truly blissful, so calm, trusting … yes, just happy! You might think it strange, even wrong, in the circumstances, but happiness and inner peace are “now things”, something available in the face of most things, this state of being is so incredibly powerful and beautiful.
As we wound our way here to our favourite coffee house in the mountains on the back of our motorbike, round bends and up steep inclines, immersed in a myriad vivid greens beneath ominous grey clouds, I revelled in nature and a welcome return to this environment that only serves to boost my good humour and sense of well-being.
Earlier, as I consciously connected with God, I spontaneously spewed out the words “I love you”. It took me by surprise as the words came unplanned, without prior intent, yet on careful retrospection they were indeed heartfelt. What is happening to me? I seem to be becoming happier, more trusting and joyful than ever, all this in the face of some major challenges. Strange that at other times I should feel I am making little progress on my journey of self discovery! This is no mean feat, the balance of mind, body and spirit undoubtedly being the root cause of my own good state of health.
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