Living in the Flow

Here I am once more, alert to the beauty around me, aware suddenly that I differ from most people in that I seek to create the world around me as I would wish it to be, as much from dreams as from faith. Whilst I sometimes allow myself to be dragged down by some of my life’s circumstances, when I wake up and breathe the easy air all around and dwell on nothing else, it no longer has any meaning and instead curiosity prevails: what will I do today, how can I enjoy my day within the time available and the physical state of me and the world around me? I can never know for sure until the day is past, so I do not waste energy answering these questions and instead focus on just one which is ever-present during an enlightened day: what do I feel like doing now?

This simple question, when respected for its enormous contribution to my happiness, allows me to tap into a higher knowing within that guides my actions and my thinking wisely and still has me do the daily chores that are so important to function in life. So it does not ignore the otherwise tedious tasks that so often bother me but instead it allows me to do it when it feels right and thereby brings effortlessness to the whole activity.

When things are not forced but chosen for the obvious benefits, there is joy and satisfaction in everything. When others question this, if I am solid within my true self I am unshaken by the challenge to my wisdom and then, on less centred days, I may wobble for a while as my upbringing, based on obligations (“shoulds”), allows guilt to creep in and I either surrender to the guilt and ignore my wishes or I defend myself to no effect or purpose. Such negative surrender is, I am pleased to say, rare these days. Perhaps less so, however, is that deep rooted trait of mine, defensiveness. Fortunately, usually the happier state of inner peace prevails and I do as I wish, what feels right in the moment, and life then poses fewer threats and obstacles.