It has never been told before, but I have suffered immeasurably over the years due to past decisions about my innate worth and “lovability” and secretly they have gnawed away at me, day in and day out, until one day the pain was too much to bear any longer and and it burst open, a flood of tears and buried pain that spewed forth, wretched in appearance, an ugly truth no longer denied.
It is hard at first to be with the truth yet it also sets me free and opens up fresh opportunity in life. Now as I await further fresh insights and understanding to complete the picture, I am calm, trusting that with it will come inner contentment with who I am and what I have become, pleased beyond words by the enormous changes in me that leave me in love with life and ready to venture forth, unafraid, inspired by the truth and the light and all this it has brought to me and may now bring to others.
God is so kind to me, its gentle, loving and protective arms firmly wrapped around me now, never letting me go, yet I am free and no longer burdened by what I saw of myself as a child, the ego personality, that mirror of other people’s thoughts and opinions rather than my true self. Now I am ‘me’ at last, loving, generous of spirit and committed to our growth into the forthcoming new age of man.
May this Christmas be the birthday of a new spirit within me, a free spirit no longer weighed down by unreal doubts and fear, in love with life itself and the wonders that lie ahead.
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