Nomadic Freedom

In the space created by me for peaceful reflection to allow me to write today’s entry, I feel at home: it is familiar here, if a little dull and also comfortable as a result. I will soon, however, face a complete change of environment following yesterday’s decision to uproot ourselves and move south to Krabi for six months to allow me to indulge my passion for nature and the sea. I have wanted to spend time there for some time but had a short holiday in mind, feeling the natural beauty of the area would enhance my work through increased connection with nature and the One, allowing me, in turn, to maximise my potential in my writings and in developing videos and my new website whilst also recharging my somewhat depleted batteries.

So, when I saw that since I am without ties and am therefore able to make this nomadic styled move for a while, it excited me enormously at first, but as it sank in. I began to worry about details, about how to make it happen: where would resources come from and how would I move so far? These thoughts haunted me as a result, so the joyful gratitude slowly gave way to fear and doubt once more, especially at night until I let the thoughts go and instead brought the universe to mind to soothe my doubts and fears by my faith in its protective and supportive benevolence.

The answer lies in faith for everything in fact, for all will be well as it always is, and that I am as yet denied insight into how to do it will all pan out is not important when I fall back on trusting God to provide answers to everything since it is currently beyond me to see it. Stressing over that inability to control circumstances is merely the machinations of an ever-fearful ego.

Only in surrendering myself to the universe can peace of mind resume, accompanied by the ever-important patience of course, as things slowly unfold, not driven by me but by the universal consciousness in its own time, not mine! And then, sat here writing this piece, after an unsettling conversation with my partner, another hurdle is resolved by a friend who provides ideas for transport as well as offering to store a large mattress which would not fit in a pickup truck, this seemingly small detail having bothered my over busy mind far too much overnight, clouding the happiness at this amazing opportunity to enjoy myself and to write to my heart’s content in at atmosphere that is, for me, akin to paradise. What a waste of energy. Enough! I know better and so surrender wholeheartedly, for the alternative is so unattractive and utterly unhelpful. Everything will be handled in the fullness of time, just as all my experience since I arrived in Thailand has shown it always is.