In the 24 hours or so since I realised that my next big challenge was to find a focus for the theories I am writing about, rather than just putting them “out there”, thinking they will somehow magically reach the right people, and I have gone through several phases: first, a sort of panic based on the fear that I am not up to the task (worthless!); second, a sense of having come to a grinding halt, a brick wall of nothingness (see yesterday’s blog entry for how that felt!); third, after a good night’s sleep, a reluctant acceptance and conscious choice not to push it or “stress it”; and now the most powerful state so far, a wholehearted surrender to the process, the creative process, if you like.
It is in that space that I write this piece somewhat excitedly as the process has brought me peace of mind and real faith that I will find the solution when the time is right. The source of this was the realisation that “going inward”, as I was advised to do, is far easier than I had realised. When people told me this in the past, I tended to be afraid that I wasn’t able to. I have a busy mind and though I meditate often it is often not necessarily the most powerful meditation that one could achieve - I have taught myself that it is better to do it than not (many people are so perturbed by the inability to silence their mind that they give up before they start).
But “going inward” can be done without meditation if necessary and, indeed, very powerfully when supported by other tools to get into a creative flow and it is this realisation that has freed me up from reluctance to genuine patience and faith, a sort of knowing that things will be all right.
So, what I do in order to “power up” this process to maximum effect - which will produce results equally effective as with the best of meditations - is that I start by being clear on what it is I am asking of myself and the universe; what is it exactly that I want answered - if it is blurred, this will confuse the subconscious as well as the universal consciousness into which I am effectively tapping when I do this.
Then, if I have any fears or doubts about my ability to do it, I notice how the ego likes to play games, thank it for its contribution and then let the thought go and trust in the process. It is a bit like when you are trying to remember something but it stubbornly sticks in the recesses of the mind and won’t come out: the more your force it, the more you try, the worse it gets; whereas, if you let go, think about something else, 9 times out of 10 the answer will suddenly pop into your head. In effect, this process is the same but is taken to a more creative level, not simply retrieving something from the annals of your memory, but processing things so as to churn out something innovative, the essence of human creativity.
Depending on the size of the creative task you have set yourself, the process then involves degrees of patience: the bigger and more complex the issue, the longer it will usually take for the answer to be forthcoming, but there are no hard and fast rules. Some things will flash into consciousness as soon you relax your mind; others will take days, weeks, months or even years perhaps, but if so the level of detail and creativity will certainly be outstanding, perhaps even a quantum leap of human thinking. For most purposes, the period will be very short.
For me, realising that I can just let go and use this process to answer my predicament about the angle and focus to apply to my work and my ebook is enough to trigger, first, that peace of mind I referred to earlier but, then, a sort of creative flow that led to this piece that I am writing now. Most exciting of all is that during the outpouring of this creative flow, the results of which you now see before you, I began to see things from it that touch upon the answer to my problem. It is not all there yet, but in the sudden rush of creativity born of freeing the mind and trusting the process, the answer is already beginning to come through, almost like magic. So this is all that going inward requires; this is the power of what it can produce!
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