All the Doubt

It’s funny how doubt still crops up all the time, doubt mainly about myself, despite all my progress on life’s journey, doubt that used to gnaw at me and even torture me at times. But now I can usually dispel the doubt quickly, so quickly that the scars of the past have almost melted away, leaving me free, happy and with peace of mind.

All of us journey through life, picking up scars from our experiences and it is up to us whether we let them cripple us or simply to add a shade of colour to just part of us. Before I let so much colour my whole life rather than put it in its place, in my past, so I could move on freely and happily.

So, yesterday two things happened to bring up doubt: one, a message from a friend passing on words intended for me as a message from the universe which I was quick to interpret as a telling off or at least a warning to be more loving; the other was when I discovered a website that ostensibly does what my new one will and is on the face of it rather good.

I doubted myself and, in effect, the universe, by these doubts. When I question myself in this why I deny the power of the universal consciousness in everything. But what I am pleased about is that I didn’t let either situation get to me.

In the end, I saw that the message was in fact a compliment to undo the misapprehension I sometimes hold, that I am somehow not strong enough to do the universe’s bidding, the message reminding me that “The true measure of strength is the measure of love in difficulty”, that I am indeed strong in my love in the face of less than loving treatment by others.

As for the website, it was easy: I know I am true to my heart in what I am doing and that is my guidance from the universal consciousness which does not get things wrong. So, with that great faith in my heart, I merely need to trust in the process and it will lead me to where I am destined to travel, to fulfil myself, whether it involves a variation of the theme as the concept develops or simply an unprecedented level of support for the website after it launches, to ensure it reaches many more people than that ostensible competitor.

The result was amazing: instead of a day or maybe even days of being upset and doubting myself, I was calm and trusting and at peace. It is lovely. No more of that self torture, that awful suffering I put myself through. The doubt lasted but seconds or maybe a minute. This is truly amazing and shows I can in time transcend even the most prominent of our negative traits … all this from taking myself on to find my true self and slowly putting the past behind me … all this from my search for happiness and fulfilment.